Friday 22 July 2011

My day of uncertain certainty

I am  moving from a gorgeous home by the sea to a gorgeous home on the edge of the South Downs. Today I am feeling a little uncertain as I am waiting to hear from my land lady to confirm a date and receive my contract. Whatever happens I will be leaving this space with the beautiful view which today looks like this 


Without an actual date I feel a little uncertain, I am usually ok with uncertainty, I gave my notice leave at the end of July before I had somewhere to go to, I knew (feeling wise) last year that by August I would not be living where I am now, even though I could not understand why I would move. I moved to Eastbourne knowing no one but myself and even that for me was more comfortable than not knowing the date at which I will move into the new place on the Hill. I guess I am wondering if it will happen and as for this feeling...do or do not...don't leave me hanging...that's the bit I do not like. So lets see what happens.

I am very aware my thoughts create my reality so I posted about it ~ out of my head onto paper (word doc/ facebook/blog) is my theory it helps me and stops the hamster effect of my mind. So I thought I would share my post on my blog. I may be uncertain about the date for moving however there are things I am certain about in this moment....

I am certain that I will be moving, I am certain that the sun will shine, I am certain that some days it will rain, I certain that I am loved, I am certain that I am worthy, I am certain that all is well, I am certain that it gets better than this, I am certain that the earth turns, I certain that my thoughts create  my reality, I am certain that the best is yet to come, I am certain that this day is amazing, I am certain that I am amazing, I am certain that I will spend time in wonderful company, I am certain that something will surprise and delight me, I am certain that uncertainty in some areas (my date for moving) is uncomfortable to me <3

I am certain that I can change my feeling by changing my focus, I am certain that it’s all happening perfectly despite how it feels, I am certain that I love the sea, I am certain that colour lifts me...and flowers too, I am certain that my new painting will be loved by someone, I am certain that poppy makes me smile by tilting her head and giving me that look before presenting me with her tummy to rub, I am certain that my gorgeous daughter is a joy to me, I am certain that I love where I am, those that surround me, I am certain that I am eager for more, I am certain that I love a good bed, I am certain that sleep feels good to me, I am certain that I love the feel of the sea and the woods. I am certain I like some things more than others...sometimes, I am certain that nothing is really certain at all...its a moment thing ;o) xxx 

It's Friday

Feeling Friday what are you feeling today and would you rather be feeling something else. I am feeling uncertain and I would rather have the feeling of certainty in this particular situation...still I guess I could let it go :o/ xxx

Thursday 21 July 2011

My Daily prayer

Thank you for bringing me to the beginning/the end of this day, thank you for everything you have given me and taken away, thank for my mother and my father, my brothers and my sisters, my family and my friends, those who I love and those who love me. Thank you for my beautiful, loving, happy, healthy, confident, wise, joyful, fun, creative, likeable, loveable, playful, successful, great-full, abundant, prosperous, photographer, writer, funny, harmonious, compassionate, intuitive, peaceful, appreciative, wonderful, kind, honest, friendly, fabulous, passionate, wonderful daughter Jade who helps to remind me of who I am...I love who I am


Thank you xxx