My day of uncertain certainty

I am  moving from a gorgeous home by the sea to a gorgeous home on the edge of the South Downs. Today I am feeling a little uncertain as I am waiting to hear from my land lady to confirm a date and receive my contract. Whatever happens I will be leaving this space with the beautiful view which today looks like this 

Without an actual date I feel a little uncertain, I am usually ok with uncertainty, I gave my notice leave at the end of July before I had somewhere to go to, I knew (feeling wise) last year that by August I would not be living where I am now, even though I could not understand why I would move. I moved to Eastbourne knowing no one but myself and even that for me was more comfortable than not knowing the date at which I will move into the new place on the Hill. I guess I am wondering if it will happen and as for this feeling...do or do not...don't leave me hanging...that's the bit I do not like. So lets see what happens.

I am very aware my thoughts create my reality so I posted about it ~ out of my head onto paper (word doc/ facebook/blog) is my theory it helps me and stops the hamster effect of my mind. So I thought I would share my post on my blog. I may be uncertain about the date for moving however there are things I am certain about in this moment....

I am certain that I will be moving, I am certain that the sun will shine, I am certain that some days it will rain, I certain that I am loved, I am certain that I am worthy, I am certain that all is well, I am certain that it gets better than this, I am certain that the earth turns, I certain that my thoughts create  my reality, I am certain that the best is yet to come, I am certain that this day is amazing, I am certain that I am amazing, I am certain that I will spend time in wonderful company, I am certain that something will surprise and delight me, I am certain that uncertainty in some areas (my date for moving) is uncomfortable to me <3

I am certain that I can change my feeling by changing my focus, I am certain that it’s all happening perfectly despite how it feels, I am certain that I love the sea, I am certain that colour lifts me...and flowers too, I am certain that my new painting will be loved by someone, I am certain that poppy makes me smile by tilting her head and giving me that look before presenting me with her tummy to rub, I am certain that my gorgeous daughter is a joy to me, I am certain that I love where I am, those that surround me, I am certain that I am eager for more, I am certain that I love a good bed, I am certain that sleep feels good to me, I am certain that I love the feel of the sea and the woods. I am certain I like some things more than others...sometimes, I am certain that nothing is really certain at all...its a moment thing ;o) xxx 

Does it fit?

Sometimes I feel like I am trying to fit myself into situations, not ones that are unknown to me, completely alien or that I haven't done a good job in before, but some don't feel the same way now. The analogy that I came to was pegs, the one about fitting a square peg into a round hole, although that now loses some credibility for me know as in my mind as I could definitely get it in. However quite similarly I am a flexible triangular peg that can fit any hole but it doesn't feel as comfortable and cosy as when I am in my trangular hole. 

Hmmm! those maybe the wrong words to use as they make me feel like going to sleep (comfortable and cosy) however the feeling I mean gives me the buzz to do he things that flow for me as its in my *Zone of genius hmmm now I know how that feels I will notice when its more prevalent.

Will this keep me in my comfort zone I think not however...who knows, I guess I will find out that's what has just come up for me, maybe it's because I have used the the word comfort, but I like things to feel good. I am very aware of when things feel good and when they don't, my vibrational indicator is improving more and more every day.

Much Love

Claudia xxx

*Zone of Genius is from the book 'The Big Leap' by Gay Hendricks

Was guided to check out YouTube for Gay Hendricks an found this.