Stepping into my vulnerability

Today ( written on Friday 1st April) I decided to step into my vulnerabilty. 


I have had a couple of situations where I have felt extremely vulnerable and consciously chose to step up to it/step into it, because I guess I did not want to be controlled by the feelings I was having around certain situations and people. It has been very freeing for me and sometimes the other person if they are 'open' to it and ready to hear my truth...as it is only my truth and if they are ready and open it benefits us both rather than just me. 


~Thank you Michelle Roberton-Jones for being open ~


Below are responses to me stepping into my vulnerability and not closing down like I normally do.


"thank you for being brave today & doing what i was too scared to do ... in setting your truth free, you set me free too. not only does that take great courage but great love & faith in who you truly are & who i truly am.... thank you x x x x :)" Michelle 


my response (Copied from Febs FB)
"Thank you, you are an amazing person, thank you for being part of this amazing journey I am grateful and very appreciative of what I have learned about myself through our connection. I love you and our friendship is important to me this bolstered my courage. I am realising more and more how important it is to speak my truth and listen to my heart so glad I did...thank you xxx" 

So I am choosing again to step into my vulnerabilty not because I know courage lies within, just because a) I feel like experimenting, b) speaking my truth is important to me as a whole person, ~all the parts of me that have been ignored and silenced for so long~ c) it's time and I can :p


It will involve me speaking to people I feel I have some unresolved energy with. People I may be holding hurt feelings around. Men I feel evoke very strong feelings for whether they are of (perceived)irritation, attraction or admiration. 


I say speak and will attempt to at every given opportunity, however if it dosen't happen that way I will also be emailing, PMing on fbook. I am looking forward to my interactions with fear and excitement...is that another way to describe vulnerability hmmm not sure.


This is based around things and situations I feel uncomfortable or fearful in and in no way is an attempt to upset or embarrass anyone, sometimes I will actually just write out my feelings and express what I would say to them on paper if it is not possible to have a face to face chat. I will see how this goes. I have done this (writing how I feel) just to get stuff out of my head and it has become a powerful technique for me to release my thoughts and express my feeling and has had some amazing results.


I think it is interesting, if not 'logical' 'magical' that I sh/could feel this way after asking my higher self to show me what I am affraid of, though I thought it would come through my dreams, though why should it as I asked for it to be plain and simple and easy for me to see *giggle*


If there is anyone out there that wants to experiment with me or would like to help clear some stuff please contact me via


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crystalangel@hotmail.co.uk


Much Love 
Claudia xxx